Three weeks ago I was contacted by someone asking me if I am interested in working on a prototype for a powered crutch. The guy had a hell of a lot of experience with embedded controls, CNC, and so on. I guess you could say I had an admiration of all the different things he does and has done, many that I am interested in. I met with him on a Thursday, and was really excited to start doing some real engineering again. I met with him 6 more times before he gave me the cold shoulder via email, saying something about waiting for parts, and will contact me again later. I messaged him a week or so later to update him on my situation, as I am still looking for a full time position, and also about the project as well.
It seems he has moved on. He is not interested in having me on the job anymore. Instead of asking me for everything (or anything) that I did, every nice detailed note I had, and the Fusion 360 files, he just re-did it all himself. I was essentially a write off. A loss. All the time and money (not a whole lot of money, but still) he invested, we was willing to drop and accept as a loss, than to recognize a shred of value that I added. What am I to make of this? To accept that he is completely correct, and that I am utterly incompetent?
I put my all into this. In his words, it was part-time (even though 5-6 hours a day, 5 days a week, is 25+ hours in person), but when I arrived home, I would work on the project all night. Most of it was just becoming familiar with Fusion 360, which for me was rather difficult. I can definitely say I spent more than full-time hours on this. But I’ve already said what happened. And I don’t really know what to do. This feeling of utter hopelessness and ever impending doom is taking over. I did my best, putting my absolute all into the project, some nights only sleeping 2 or 3 hours before waking up to work on it more, before going in again.
There are other details about it, but I digress. I would like to learn from this as much as I can, and move on Even though he did not give me a realistic chance at proving myself, I suppose I gained a few takeaways. First, I learned an honest amount about F360. At first, I could barely move things around, now I feel a lot more confident about it, even though I am still very new to the way this CAD tool works,
The second thing I learned – albeit very short in duration and in depth – was in actual design and construction of motors, generators, driver circuits, and so on. For what it’s worth, I guess a third thing is persevering in the face of extreme adversity. It is a difficult situation that I must persevere through, and continue living my life as best as I possibly can. I know from experience that it could always be worse.
In the meantime, I have things I can do on the side – beside looking for a job – that I can work on to take my mind off of this situation. I am working on several other things at the moment that I wish to roll out as soon as possible. I am still unsure of how it will be done, but they are definitely in progress. Until then, onwards and upwards.